urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers boxcar_cadavers boxcar_cadavers 2004-05-16T02:13:23Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:14545 2004-05-16T02:13:23Z 2004-05-16T02:13:23Z why the fuck do i feel bad about this now? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:14171 2004-05-11T19:54:38Z 2004-05-11T19:54:38Z strokes last night<br />fucking awesome<br /><br />if you play guitar and don't just "play guitar" and live in the greater bay city area, comment urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:13925 2004-05-05T19:56:20Z 2004-05-05T20:02:55Z Fuck band bounce.<br />It's Wednesday and i am only thinking about the weekend.<br />This one has more potential than last one did,<br />but lets not speak too soon.<br />I always do.<br /><br />This will be one of those normal journal entries where i say how my day/week went. Pretty fuckin shitty so far, buts its cool. Chris told me today that my most emo quaility is the fact that i don't love life. I disagree with thtat though, i do love life just in a much different way. I don't look at the sky and think wow that mother fucker is blue, how beautiful. I love life for the experience, and all the complaining i do about how shitty people are and how we are all fucked; i say why focus on the good stuff when you can fix the bad to make it perfect. Its hardly pessimistic, its hopefull. Be ready for f/a/t/e to come back, because we are going to fucking amaze.<br /><br />comment about your favorite ninja turtle, the wings fucking losing, tangerines, identification cards, camping, eyes, cruntchy or creamy peanut butter, or ram a pirate day urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:13706 2004-05-03T18:54:57Z 2004-05-03T18:54:57Z fuck my "friends" man urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:13552 2004-05-03T01:00:13Z 2004-05-03T01:04:57Z jamais vu- the opposite of deja vu, when everyone and everything are strangers no matter how well you think you know them<br /><br />weekend sorta blew, boring as hell<br />ungrounded<br />i don't know what i want, but i am pretty sure i know what i don't want urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:13133 2004-04-28T02:06:10Z 2004-04-28T02:06:10Z you might move slow, but this won't<br />you might think twice, i suggest you don't<br />i'll be the back windsheild<br />if you check the rear-view<br />but we all know how much you look behind you<br /><br />too bad i have never been clear with my intentions<br />and the rarity of your glance means nothing to you<br />because i am about as clear as the scored glass<br />and you are about as vital as the yellow lines urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:12847 2004-04-26T02:44:41Z 2004-04-26T02:44:41Z when its fucking over its still not done urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:12675 2004-04-24T04:11:05Z 2004-04-24T04:11:48Z So i got grounded, originally it was for the whole school year, no tv, no internet, no license, amoung other things. However, now two days after i am eligible for parole next friday (depending on my new weekly progress reports from teachers). I also have the internet and tv. Pretty sweet. <br /><br />You know you get bad grades when Haley Hoogland does better.<br />What have i turned into?<br /><br />Anyway, keep it real guys. I think now that i am in a better mood, I won't be updating for a long time, if ever again. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:12329 2004-04-21T02:18:48Z 2004-04-21T02:18:48Z someone make my lips feel better,<br />the inside of my upper lip is like shredded, <br />if hockey = awesome<br />then why does braces+hockey+= turbo gay? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:12247 2004-04-20T02:25:22Z 2004-04-20T02:25:55Z good fucking day<br /><br />ortho<br />fuckin wind<br />hockey<br />little jazz band<br />more hockey<br />more dudes<br />the contrast from day to day man, it could kill you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:11969 2004-04-18T21:32:02Z 2004-04-18T21:32:02Z i never really woke up today<br />fuck you<br />i have never slept so much<br /><br />running up the dock past the guards and into shock<br />the day you died while i commited the favor you asked of me<br />you could say i wasn't fast enough<br />but i prefer that your effort is inadequet<br /><br />the stairs get closer together the faster i run<br />i can see it draining from your IV<br />at the first landing from window one<br />my throat burns when i hit the second floor<br /><br />here i am where they tell me how to speak my mind<br />now the favors done but you are out of time<br />first landing window one<br />the ground never looked so comfortable<br /><br />the day the favor was commited <br />in hopes of what could save you killed you faster<br />but before i left i stole the IV that you slashed yourself<br />to remind me that it was your fault anyway urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:11527 2004-04-16T19:41:05Z 2004-04-16T19:41:05Z i am red with your boredom<br />and i am bruised from your temporary<br /><br />i will not gag you, just to hear you scream my name<br /><br />nine miles above your watery grave<br />8 seconds till the blackout<br />2 verses till abandonment<br />1 word<br />there was a wire tap<br />so i have evidence<br />of all your false pretenses<br /><br />dripping clear its saturated<br /><br />count the sylables of innocent blood on your hands<br />they echo the number of ink stains beneath my finger nails<br /><br />you might want to sit down for this<br />bury the fucking breathless urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:11376 2004-04-16T02:50:48Z 2004-04-16T02:50:48Z I would like everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.<br /><br />Ask me anything you want, and I will answer.<br /><br />Then I would like for you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. If you do not ask me questions and do this then you are not my friend, weiners. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:11165 2004-04-15T19:22:44Z 2004-04-15T19:22:44Z i logged in thinking i would update, but i have nothing to say urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:10774 2004-04-13T02:22:18Z 2004-04-13T02:22:18Z this break from gravity<br />is worth far less to me<br /><br />everything passes<br />all it takes is time and everything passes<br /><br />at first it sounds comforting until you realize that there are no exceptions<br /><br />for the first time in my life i am alot different than i used to be<br />i am a completely different person than i was a year ago. I won't even bother trying to figure out if that is a good thing or a bad thing, because trying to figure somehting like that only makes liars out of people. As i am typing right now i am shaking because its so fucking cold, or is that why? <br /><br />don't ask yourself questions when you know the answers are only land mines<br />it's shell shock<br /><br />minus the drive-in, more like a drive-by<br />softness of her skin, coldness of her eyes<br />killing pretense, join the procession<br />a heartleses girl, her veil is black<br /><br />my parents had my preist over for dinner on friday<br />it wasn't as awkward as you might think<br /><br />can i sleep till summer<br />and when i wake can it be somewhere else urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:10529 2004-04-05T02:34:21Z 2004-04-05T02:34:21Z are no exceptions urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:10233 2004-03-31T04:19:58Z 2004-03-31T04:19:58Z just picked up the alexis cd, after wanting it since fucking august.<br />its awesome<br />so was fuckin gameworks at glc<br /><br />then i get home<br />and you can all suck a fucking dick<br />seriously<br /><br /><br />today i realized<br /> after you are going <br />as fast as you can<br />the only thrill left is stopping<br />as fast as you can<br />so change lanes quick<br />and don't look back<br />keep your foot down<br />and turn your wheel ever so slightly<br />at speeds like this your too receptive<br />i can already hear you screaming urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:9788 2004-03-26T00:13:10Z 2004-03-26T00:13:10Z looks like tomorrow is the last day as Five Across the Eyes. Sorry. You made it awesome. Things should be ok though... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:9618 2004-03-22T03:59:15Z 2004-03-22T03:59:15Z its all about the way the cracks in the sidewalk chase you when you look down<br />and its all about the way those very cracks are all that make up this town<br />and every time that i look down and see the errors that are carefully scratching at our heels i can't help but laugh<br /><br />best night i have had in a long time urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:9316 2004-03-20T04:33:40Z 2004-03-20T04:33:40Z talk about a night that sucked<br /><br /><br />as you chew and swallow your prescription of steel<br />i am thinking of how beautiful you are <br />when bleeding from your mouth and cheek<br /><br />the only decency you can find<br />is from the inside of a syringe<br />and the only humility you own<br />is buried deep between the sutures<br />of an open gash you will born with<br />you will never heal urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:8973 2004-03-19T02:31:03Z 2004-03-19T02:31:03Z the first time i saw your face it reminded me of a song<br />so i quickly changed the tune urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:8923 2004-03-18T01:48:57Z 2004-03-18T01:48:57Z the cure<br />darkest hour<br />armor for sleep<br /><br />- new cds= awesome<br /><br />getting new merch hopefully for the 26th<br />chris is at national clb on the 26th so dan roznowski is gonna play with us for that show<br />natalie, five across the eyes, silence the wake, farewell to twilight, hope for august<br />great bands its going to be amazing, come check it out<br /><br />decent week<br />nothing too terrible nothing too great<br /><br /> comment! comment! comment! toTheMax! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:8623 2004-03-15T21:54:42Z 2004-03-15T21:54:42Z nothing really to say, pretty good weekend urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:8300 2004-03-11T03:26:41Z 2004-03-11T03:26:41Z lets line it up on the wall <br />and call the firing squad<br />and in front of this spinning serenade<br />throw expectation urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:boxcar_cadavers:8014 2004-03-10T20:11:22Z 2004-03-10T20:11:22Z this is the first time i have touched this computer in the last two weeks<br />nothing to say in here<br />boom dive bomb<br /><br /><br /><br />let me tie your concrete laces<br /><br /><br />and look up from the bottom as the ripples wrinkle your pretty face